Right now I feel like I'm "doing well" despite the stress and work. It's kind of a nebulous feeling, but I feel like I'm doing the right thing for me at this time and place. (Or the next thing, if I'm feeling Spider Robinson-ish).
The last four years, I wasn't doing well, because I felt that I was wasting my time doing what I was doing. I didn't sleep well, I fretted all the time.
I'm perhaps busier and doing more stressful things now, but I sleep better and wake up wanting to do what I do. Before I organized banal things for students, now I mark their efforts, which is more important to them, but oddly enough, I was less stressed this morning listening to students complain about their grades on the midterm than I had been dealing with ordering lunches and organizing rooms for them.
My dad said something I consider very wise at one point. He said that it's not about doing what you love, it's about finding the thing you can't not do. I can't not do this. I'm just so glad I can do it fulltime.
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The last four years, I wasn't doing well, because I felt that I was wasting my time doing what I was doing. I didn't sleep well, I fretted all the time.
I'm perhaps busier and doing more stressful things now, but I sleep better and wake up wanting to do what I do. Before I organized banal things for students, now I mark their efforts, which is more important to them, but oddly enough, I was less stressed this morning listening to students complain about their grades on the midterm than I had been dealing with ordering lunches and organizing rooms for them.
My dad said something I consider very wise at one point. He said that it's not about doing what you love, it's about finding the thing you can't not do. I can't not do this. I'm just so glad I can do it fulltime.