I had to start my 3 fun, 1 serious book program because I found that I was ripping through the fun books, but never really made an effort to read non-fiction because I couldn't zip through them - it requires a more active mindset to read non-fiction for me.

And as for poly and insecurity? *Everyone* is insecure when they start doing weird things with thier lives. Not only do you get to multiply the good stuff, you get to multiply the stress and worry! It's worth it, though, if you can handle it.