Right now I feel very worthless because I am in a bad environment. I'm doing things because they feel like they are the right thing to do at this time. I'm taking use of opportunities available for me even though I don't see what my ultimate outcome will be.
But I feel really good when I help other people (either coworkers with computer issues or professors with class duties), when I get respect from my boss, or in my personal life when I achieve a goal or finish a project I care about, etc.
I wish I could entirely put my finger on what is so toxic about this environment, because it would help whoever takes over after me.
The problem is that I truly do not care about the job I am doing here about 75-90% of the time. That and the stuff I do like doing is always low priority.
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Date: 2005-11-10 04:32 pm (UTC)But I feel really good when I help other people (either coworkers with computer issues or professors with class duties), when I get respect from my boss, or in my personal life when I achieve a goal or finish a project I care about, etc.
I wish I could entirely put my finger on what is so toxic about this environment, because it would help whoever takes over after me.
The problem is that I truly do not care about the job I am doing here about 75-90% of the time. That and the stuff I do like doing is always low priority.
Bah.