I am in a good mood.

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Yes, a *good* mood. Not just not depressed. But a good mood!



I had to abuse chemicals to get into such a good mood - I had a cup of decaf coffee this afternoon, and some advil for the headache I had. I didn't sleep well last night. The chemicals gave me the energy to have a fantastic workout, though, and that, in turn, filled me with endorphins. Enough that as I went down to get changed, I had to fight back my toothy, wolfish grin (those who have seen me dance may recognize that grin). I am having alcohol to counteract the caffeine now, so that I'll be able to sleep as well as I might normally. We shall see if I end up waking up at 2, 3 and 4 am again.

In other news, I continue to tweak my workout plan. My current plan is to still do weights first on weight nights, but try for low impact cardio afterwards, instead of HIIT - that tends to give me a fantastic workout, but I get to sore to keep it up over the week. So, when I do cardio nights, I'll go nuts but on weight nights, spend more time on the cross trainer. This is important, because I've been finding that I just haven't had the energy for 20 minutes of high intensity cardio after a full weights workout, so I've been getting a lot less cardio.

I'm happy with the results I've been getting from the weights shift (i.e., not doing cardio before weights), but I need to maintain a fairly aggressive cardio plan at the same time - I still need to lose more fat to get to where I should be, as far as my doctors and nutritionist are concerned.

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Honestly, you are a very pretty person. And I mean that in the most positive sense possible. Don't get too obsessive about body image, it isn't good for your psyche and emotional health. I'm glad you are feeling so good about yourself, though. And I abuse caffeine like it's the air I breathe.

I want to get really fit so that I feel confident I would survive in the wild. I am just very lazy and usually exhausted after a day running frantically around a dusty fileroom organizing things. Perhaps that is excercise on its own. I want to get really fit and learn to hunt things, like the predator I am on the inside. I would need a team to help me pull down and prepare large game, though. And the knowledge and skills to do it. But yeah ... mostly my motivation for working out would be so that I could feel like an invincible huntress! But fat chance that would happen :P

PS: I like the hair. I was considering today what colour I should bleach/make neon my hair. It's a toss-up between red, violet and the kind of blue in your userpic.

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*blush* Thank you!

The reason I still fret about my weight is that, a few years ago, my doctor looked me over, ran tests and said something to the effect of "OMG! You are too fat! Lose weight, get in shape or you will have a heart attack before you're 40!"

I've lost 60 lbs since then, but my doctor (two removed from the one who first told me to lose weight) is still telling me that I'm way too heavy for my own good. So I continue to fret.

For various medical reasons, I shouldn't really be messing with caffeine - I'm very sensitive to it, so that cup of decaf is to me what a cup or two of regular coffee is to a normal person.

I hear you on the invincible huntress thing, though. One of my big motivations for keeping up at the gym is that I want to be invincible - I want to be able to walk for hours and hours and hours if I need to, or fight off a zombie attack or whatever. Or, you know, go dancing for hours on end. :)

For hair colour, for all my playing, I still find red is the most fun. But if you haven't done blue in a while...

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I've never done blue. I did black/blue, but the ammonia made my hair fade to red-blonde. Which is messed up, considering my natural hair colour is brown.

Yeah, I was always told by doctors that I was overweight. I felt horrible about it. I never weigh myself anymore because it makes me neurotic. I have an annual physical coming up, and I will tell them not to let me know what my weight is.

I shouldn't take caffeine either. My doctor chides me about it. But I've decided that it's the one addiction I will allow myself to indulge.

You don't look overweight to me. I wouldn't worry about it too much. I want more muscle mass, which would boost my weight. But I don't care, because I don't want to know how much I weigh anyway.

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If you have never gone blue, then I recommend it! I stopped using blue-black when, one summer, I had it fade out entirely back to my natural colour. Granted, I was spending an hour every day, at noon, outside, but still. Black dye should be proof aginst blond highlights.

Muscle mass is awesome. It is sexy, and, more importantly, makes it easier to Do Stuff.