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[curgoth]

I am an interstital man. I am on the outside edge of a number of subcultures and scenes, and not really a part of any of them.

I am standing in the doorway of my own life and I don't know how to go into a room without being dragged.

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[delerium69.livejournal.com]

I definitely feel that way too sometimes. It can be frustrating. I feel too freakish for normal people, but normal for the freaks.

But maybe deep down EVERYONE feels that way?

[curgoth]

I'm not so much frustrated by the identity component of it as much as the community aspect. It's more things like not having anyone to talk to when I go out clubbing, not being able to go to certain kinds of parties, not really being part of various activities even if I'm there.

I know that it's not a universal issue, because I have occasionally been more connected to a community than I am now, and I miss that.

I know some people don't want to be that close to a loose group of people, and I know some people substitute family for it. What I'm missing isn't freinds - I have friends, and I'm glad for that. But it's not the same thing.