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[curgoth]

I am an interstital man. I am on the outside edge of a number of subcultures and scenes, and not really a part of any of them.

I am standing in the doorway of my own life and I don't know how to go into a room without being dragged.

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[curgoth]

I'm not looking for identity, I'm looking for community, and for inclusion in various groups' activities.

[uniquecrash5.livejournal.com]

Any community in particular, or communities in general? Just feelin' a little isolated maybe?

[curgoth]

I have a few particular communities that I was thinking about last night, but it's a general issue I have. It's based in part on certain personality traits that I have, and wish I do de-program myself of.

[uniquecrash5.livejournal.com]

Now I'm all intrigued. What personality traits are these?

Personally I've found sigil magic kind of useful towards that kind of thing. Easy, too.

[curgoth]

Chiefly my tendency to be paranoid and closed, combined with what seems to be a key social skill that I missed out on at an early age.

[uniquecrash5.livejournal.com]

Well, that does sound like the sort of thing a little sigil magick might be useful for. Make your subconcious work for you, is the basic idea. It's pretty simple, plus it involves sex (the way I usually do it anyway) so it's fun!

I dig using chaos magick, 'cause it's experimental/scientific rather than authoritarian. Try it, if it works for you great, if it doesn't, well, try something else.

Not enough time for me to describe the method presently, but I can later if you're interested.